I use to read in books that disease don’t differentiate between young or old; but now when I was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 25 I believed that fact.
I am the only son for my parents and I am the big brother to one little sister. Since the age of 10 and I became orphan as my father died of the same disease. Now , I inherited it. It’s not cancer that I fear but it’s how my family will be without me. Being the only one who takes care of my old mother and my little 12 years old sister. How would they live without me ?
I wonder why doctors say that early detection of cancer can help save life. When the truth is you don’t know you have cancer unless it’s metastasized to other organs. Which is what happened to me? As the symptoms didn’t show and I wasn’t diagnosed until too late to intervene. The fact of cancer is that you don’t have time ; you don’t have time to decide nor to take a breath . In a moment you might be alive and tomorrow – no one knows .
People and family looks in a sympathetic way , while doctors want a fast reply about your decisions and your friends everyone gives an opinion or not to go for surgery others say ” Yes do it ! “. I got confused and to some point I didn’t what to do nor who to guide me . Whatever it was ; it has to be done fast. Meanwhile ; the image of my father when he was suffering after the he undergone multiple surgeries was haunting me .
I use to hear nurses saying in empathy how unlucky I was ! Being a handsome young man and having cancer. Everything is destiny . Before we were born our lives were written, I am Muslim , and I believe in Allah and that He would guide me and be the most merciful .
So that day the doctor was waiting a reply from me whether I agreed for surgery or no. I made a prayer and then I agreed. Whatsoever the consequences could be ! And if either ways we are dying ; I want to die trying .
” There are always a wings of hope “
– Around 12.7 million new cancer cases were diagnosed worldwide in 2008.
– The most commonly diagnosed cancers worldwide are lung, breast and colorectal cancers. The most common causes of cancer death are lung, stomach and liver cancers
– Approximately 70% of cancer deaths occur in low- and middle-income countries.
– One in 4 deaths in the United States is due to cancer.
– The rate of death in cancer has also been increased in 2010
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A year passed just very fast. I didn’t notice that i was a nurse all that period. Maybe i wasn’t planning to stay as one for a long time – nor i was expecting to survive this period ; but I did ! I have seen alot , and I have met many people . I can even remember each and every patient i had … some left me a wound that never heals and others left me an ever lasting smile .
When life takes away the most dear thing to your heart… make sure that it’s preparing you a lovely surprise.
Nursing is the power to heal , the power to create whats lost within those patients , and the power to make them die peacefully . It’s never eacy to go through such emotions in a time – what if you go to work everyday and seeing this ! It could really be devastating…. but after all that’s what we do . And day by day we learn how to cope with it. Until one day it becomes a routine ; your patient might be dying and when your shift finishes , there might be your son’s birthday party waiting . We try to hold our tears , to control our emotions, and to put ur work aside and our life aside. Thus , life goes on .
We read through their eyes, we understand there pain but we can never feel their pain . We show empathy but never the sympathy . We hold their hand and rub their tears … we sing for them and so keep their strength . We give them what they might have lost until they recover and leave us smiling .
It was the weekend, and I was on morning duty. Unlike the rest of the days we only had 15 patients in the ward. Medical ward with 15 patients , that was like WOW ! and there was enough staff covering ; that each nurse took only one or two patients. While I looked at the mirror as it was raining with that lovely cold wind breeze; the flashback started when I was back in high school . I remember that whenever teachers or friends asked me what would like to be in the future…? My answer was always one. I want to be among sick people . I want to help others. And here I am !
I can still remember when my mother wanted me to be an English teacher , I never had a second thought towards that for my answer was always “ NO “ . And I joined nursing , and I never regretted it . Not even in the worst times.
Every day passes with a great new experience to learn whether it’s in the professional side or the practical life ; because I learn something every moment. And am sure every nurse do . You won’t imagine what we can learn from caring for the geriatric patients. How every unsaid expression counts ? How every smile makes difference? And How every touch heals a soul ? Not only that but what they give us is much more.
We have a different life outside our working hours , but once we are at work .. once we enter the hospital everything else ends and we become totally devoted for our patients. We smile and laugh for our patients and we cry and pray for our patients … We Live for them ! Because to them; we are all they count on.
It changes our lives , we change the patient’s life. And we touch their hearts. That it heals all their wounds. During my time in the hospital , I have realized that it’s the non- medical effect that heals the people.
So , we keep facing the world.. and we as nurses we put our lives on the line for sake of others; that is how we are and that is what we’ll always be . The world around us is just an opportunity for every nurse whether you are just starting , or been in the field for years or even a nursing student. There will be always much more to discover and find out .
Although there are times that we feel like giving up , but I think that those are the moments that proves our strength most. We give hope and faith to others ; so we can’t lose them ourselves. Cherish your days not only for what you are but for what you want in the future.