To start with , something beautiful died in me . Something’s gone and I don’t know if it will come back .
My life is going so random and everything is so jumped up side down. . My vision is a blurred one though it was clear. My will or other’s will; my dream or other’s dream ; my pain or other’s dream. Then the only answer to the was ; Is it my life or theirs ?
But the problem is that I didn’t even know any answer for that as well .
I only hid myself under the bed and kept crying ; thinking and thinking ; and kept crying and yet nothing changes.
It’s said that the one who don’t find love at home, he’ll never find it else where. And that which is not loved by his own family no one else will.
Life is all about experience about what to do and what to not ! About who to love and who to not !
Sometimes it just don’t snow and the dreams are far away. Sometimes my life aren’t that cool. What if we had the choice of everything in our life ? Maybe then things could have been easier.
I don’t know why am even living . I try to forget but I can’t and I try to forgive but its not enough. I try to hold on but it hurts a lot .