In a dark place In an empty place In a place which ain't my life In a place so quite That darkness that made me bilnd That emptiness that me alone That life which is just not mine Co'z am now so sick And falling apart Co'z now am sad And so can't smile Things go around All around me Things go about And am in the mid And now things change And I no longer make the world smile Sleeping with tears Waking with fears And at the end i realize That the world wants me to smile And at the end i realize That the world wants me to smile
This poem means alot to me . It won the best poem in a poetry site . I wrote it with a person i called a friend. ................................. I wonder if things could change I wonder if life could just be I wonder why .... Why it have to be that way ? When things aren't how they were & when you are all alone Coz that is how I was born Whenever i try to look at the sun It fades away never lookin back at me .. Its like am stuck in this cage .. can't walk.. talk.. Its hard to breath and there's no escape .. Depression has a limit but mine exceeded And its even beyond misery I wonder if life could just be I wonder if things could change Am falling apart With a wounded heart Nothing is left but a tear drop And the lonely Me.. And the broken Me My heartbeat lonely and sad.. Hardly beating the life in me .. Even dreams have forsaken my fantasy I try to imagine a perfect place But my imagination fails in every try .. Some one just tell me why As I wonder why .. Why it has to end that way .
Nurses see people in their worst conditions of time. Those who are severely ill , amputated leg or arm, fractured, diagnosed with cancer or with uncured diseases . Patients who are dying ; nurses witness all that and here we give not only nursing care but also emotional support . Though we may feel sad , tears that can’t leave our eyes , empathy & fear of losing them yet we have to do it.
Let me share with you a story of a newly graduated nurse , Betty, hired at a surgical ward. There ; where she met John 7 year old boy with an head injury from a traffic accident . He was on a ventilator , monitor & many machines, semi conscious and stable. When betty asked about his family or relatives they mentioned that they rarely visit him. Betty not only saw all that but saw a young child ; neglected, alone, depressed and in a cage.
Whenever she rubbed his hand gently he moved it mildly as if he felt it, when she sang for him his eyes tired moving towards her as if he was saying ” Thank you for being around , for singing for me when no one did ” . I can tell he was happy thought compared to normal kids this was nothing but to him its was .
Betty did all that with love & care . Days passed and John became so sick. Doctors thought that he may not make it any more. Until he passed away in October 9th 1999 . The night before his death betty saw him sick & yet couldn’t do anything more to help him but pray, she read some verses from the holy book as she held his hands. She was no longer a nurse at the moment but a human , but a mother , but a sister but a loving person.
It was a shock for her , even though everyone knew it. She couldn’t eat well for days , she couldn’t go to the work with passing by his room, she can’t see the patients without remembering him.
He lived , though his life was a sorely tired. It happened calmly, on its own. The way night comes when the day is over.
Yea ! this is the life , so harsh . We have to move on because we will see many other clients like John . We ,nurses can’t be emotionless but we have to control it . We have to learn that is part of our job condolences and caring for death. Our job requires more of us. People go and come; just like how John’s room was occupied by another patient.
Days pass and life goes on.
“The Darkest Hour Is that before the Dawn “
No matter how dark the night might be , the dawn will eventually come . No matter how wrong the are , something may happen that changes it.
You just have to keep believing in it . I agree with you , there are many hard days .There are many obstacles .But nothing is always the same . I understand how hard it is when dreams don’t come true. When sun never shines, when the only , only raining cloud , rains on you .When you keep on crying and there is no one to wipe your tears.
You always wake up every morning and put a fake smile on your face but one day will come that you no longer can put that fake smile. That your no longer can hide your tears, one day it will show how your face is so sad, how your eyes are full of tears . The miserable days you have been through , the pain you live in .
Yea ! you can’t always hide it .